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"It serves me right, because it was all sham; because it was all

done on purpose, and not from the heart. What business had I to

interfere with outsiders? And so it's come about that I'm a cause

of quarrel, and that I've done what nobody asked me to do.

Because it was all a sham! a sham! a sham!..."

"A sham! with what object?" said Varenka gently.

"Oh, it's so idiotic! so hateful! There was no need whatever for

me.... Nothing but sham!" she said, opening and shutting the

parasol.

"But with what object?"

"To seem better to people, to myself, to God; to deceive

everyone. No! now I won't descend to that. I'll be bad; but

anyway not a liar, a cheat."

"But who is a cheat?" said Varenka reproachfully. "You speak as

if...."

But Kitty was in one of her gusts of fury, and she would not let

her finish.