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"I cannot be so easily reconciled to myself. The recollection of

what I then said, of my conduct, my manners, my expressions

during the whole of it, is now, and has been many months,

inexpressibly painful to me. Your reproof, so well applied, I

shall never forget: 'Had you behaved in a more gentlemanlike

manner.' Those were your words. You know not, you can scarcely

conceive, how they have tortured me; though it was some time, I

confess, before I was reasonable enough to allow their justice."

"I was certainly very far from expecting them to make so strong

an impression. I had not the smallest idea of their being ever

felt in such a way."

"I can easily believe it. You thought me then devoid of every

proper feeling, I am sure you did. The turn of your countenance I

shall never forget, as you said that I could not have addressed

you in any possible way that would induce you to accept me."