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That's because you are incapable of getting away from prejudices.

Confound it all! I understand now where the unpleasantness is of

being deceived in a legal marriage, but it's simply a despicable

consequence of a despicable position in which both are

humiliated. When the deception is open, as in a free marriage,

then it does not exist, it's unthinkable. Your wife will only

prove how she respects you by considering you incapable of

opposing her happiness and avenging yourself on her for her new

husband. Damn it all! I sometimes dream if I were to be married,

pfoo! I mean if I were to marry, legally or not, it's just the

same, I should present my wife with a lover if she had not found

one for herself. 'My dear,' I should say, 'I love you, but even

more than that I desire you to respect me. See!' Am I not right?"