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The letter continues with reflections on the nature of death,

'more to be rejoiced at than bewailed, the younger one dies,' and

an arraignment of Providence not without dignity, wrung from him

as it were by this last culminating misfortune. It concludes with

a summing-up of his life in protest against the blow which has

fallen on his grey head.

'Through my long life I have committed nothing which might bring

dishonour, or disgrace, or shame: no deed of avarice or treachery

have I done in all my day's: nay, but much generosity, much

kindness, much truth and faithfulness have I shown, often at the

risk of my own life. I have lived in amity with my good brother,

whom I rejoice to see in possession of the highest office by your

father's goodness, and by your friendship at peace and perfect

rest. The offices which I have myself obtained I never strove for

by any underhand means. I have cultivated my mind rather than my

body; the pursuit of learning I have preferred to increasing my

wealth. I preferred to be poor rather than bound by any' man's

obligation, even to want rather than to beg. I have never been

extravagant in spending money, I have earned it sometimes because

I must. I have scrupulously spoken the truth, and have been glad

to hear it spoken to me.