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Weeping and sobbing and wringing her hands, she married me! For

she had nowhere to turn! Do you understand, sir, do you

understand what it means when you have absolutely nowhere to

turn? No, that you don't understand yet.... And for a whole year,

I performed my duties conscientiously and faithfully, and did not

touch this" (he tapped the jug with his finger), "for I have

feelings. But even so, I could not please her; and then I lost my

place too, and that through no fault of mine but through changes

in the office; and then I did touch it!... It will be a year and

a half ago soon since we found ourselves at last after many

wanderings and numerous calamities in this magnificent capital,

adorned with innumerable monuments. Here I obtained a

situation.... I obtained it and I lost it again. Do you

understand? This time it was through my own fault I lost it: for

my weakness had come out....