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She felt terrified at the disgrace, of which she had not ever

thought before. Directly she thought of what her husband would

do, the most terrible ideas came to her mind. She had a vision of

being turned out of the house, of her shame being proclaimed to

all the world. She asked herself where she should go when she was

turned out of the house, and she could not find an answer.

When she thought of Vronsky, it seemed to her that he did not

love her, that he was already beginning to be tired of her, that

she could not offer herself to him, and she felt bitter against

him for it. It seemed to her that the words that she had spoken

to her husband, and had continually repeated in her imagination,

she had said to everyone, and everyone had heard them. She could

not bring herself to look those of her own household in the face.

She could not bring herself to call her maid, and still less go

downstairs and see her son and his governess.