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Peace was made. But with her father's coming all the world in

which she had been living was transformed for Kitty. She did not

give up everything she had learned, but she became aware that she

had deceived herself in supposing she could be what she wanted to

be. Her eyes were, it seemed, opened; she felt all the difficulty

of maintaining herself without hypocrisy and self-conceit on the

pinnacle to which she had wished to mount. Moreover, she became

aware of all the dreariness of the world of sorrow, of sick and

dying people, in which she had been living. The efforts she had

made to like it seemed to her intolerable, and she felt a longing

to get back quickly into the fresh air, to Russia, to Ergushovo,

where, as she knew from letters, her sister Dolly had already

gone with her children.

But her affection for Varenka did not wane. As she said good-bye,

Kitty begged her to come to them in Russia.

"I'll come when you get married," said Varenka.

"I shall never marry."