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As he said this, he was suddenly overwhelmed with confusion and

turned pale. Again that awful sensation he had known of late

passed with deadly chill over his soul. Again it became suddenly

plain and perceptible to him that he had just told a fearful

lie--that he would never now be able to speak freely of

everything--that he would never again be able to speak of

anything to anyone. The anguish of this thought was such that for

a moment he almost forgot himself. He got up from his seat, and

not looking at anyone walked towards the door.

"What are you about?" cried Razumihin, clutching him by the arm.

He sat down again, and began looking about him, in silence. They

were all looking at him in perplexity.

"But what are you all so dull for?" he shouted, suddenly and

quite unexpectedly. "Do say something! What's the use of sitting

like this? Come, do speak. Let us talk.... We meet together and

sit in silence.... Come, anything!"