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Luzhin, a rupture to which I believe she is herself not

disinclined, if she could see the way to it."

"You are certainly mad," cried Raskolnikov not so much angered as

astonished. "How dare you talk like that!"

"I knew you would scream at me; but in the first place, though I

am not rich, this ten thousand roubles is perfectly free; I have

absolutely no need for it. If Avdotya Romanovna does not accept

it, I shall waste it in some more foolish way. That's the first

thing. Secondly, my conscience is perfectly easy; I make the

offer with no ulterior motive. You may not believe it, but in the

end Avdotya Romanovna and you will know. The point is, that I did

actually cause your sister, whom I greatly respect, some trouble

and unpleasantness, and so, sincerely regretting it, I want--not

to compensate, not to repay her for the unpleasantness, but

simply to do something to her advantage, to show that I am not,

after all, privileged to do nothing but harm.