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Prince Andrew, however, did not answer that voice and went on

dreaming of his triumphs. The dispositions for the next battle

are planned by him alone. Nominally he is only an adjutant on

Kutuzov's staff, but he does everything alone. The next battle is

won by him alone. Kutuzov is removed and he is appointed... "Well

and then?" asked the other voice. "If before that you are not ten

times wounded, killed, or betrayed, well... what then?..." "Well

then," Prince Andrew answered himself, "I don't know what will

happen and don't want to know, and can't, but if I want this-want

glory, want to be known to men, want to be loved by them, it is

not my fault that I want it and want nothing but that and live

only for that. Yes, for that alone! I shall never tell anyone,

but, oh God! what am I to do if I love nothing but fame and men's

esteem? Death, wounds, the loss of family-I fear nothing.