Sayfa 755 / 1294

And she never asks anyone for anything; she is proud, she'd

sooner give away everything. And these she asked for, she liked

them so much. And I was sorry to give them. 'What use are they to

you, Katerina Ivanovna?' I said. I spoke like that to her, I

ought not to have said that! She gave me such a look. And she was

so grieved, so grieved at my refusing her. And it was so sad to

see.... And she was not grieved for the collars, but for my

refusing, I saw that. Ah, if only I could bring it all back,

change it, take back those words! Ah, if I... but it's nothing to

you!"

"Did you know Lizaveta, the pedlar?"

"Yes.... Did you know her?" Sonia asked with some surprise.

"Katerina Ivanovna is in consumption, rapid consumption; she will

soon die," said Raskolnikov after a pause, without answering her

question.

"Oh, no, no, no!"

And Sonia unconsciously clutched both his hands, as though

imploring that she should not.

"But it will be better if she does die."