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"Ah, I see you think I am in such a condition!" Razumihin broke

in upon her thoughts, guessing them, as he strolled along the

pavement with huge steps, so that the two ladies could hardly

keep up with him, a fact he did not observe, however. "Nonsense!

That is... I am drunk like a fool, but that's not it; I am not

drunk from wine. It's seeing you has turned my head... But don't

mind me! Don't take any notice: I am talking nonsense, I am not

worthy of you.... I am utterly unworthy of you! The minute I've

taken you home, I'll pour a couple of pailfuls of water over my

head in the gutter here, and then I shall be all right.... If

only you knew how I love you both! Don't laugh, and don't be

angry! You may be angry with anyone, but not with me! I am his

friend, and therefore I am your friend, too, I want to be... I

had a presentiment... Last year there was a moment... though it

wasn't a presentiment really, for you seem to have fallen from

heaven. And I expect I shan't sleep all night...