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"These were the reflections of my hours of despondency and

solitude; but when I contemplated the virtues of the cottagers,

their amiable and benevolent dispositions, I persuaded myself

that when they should become acquainted with my admiration of

their virtues they would compassionate me and overlook my

personal deformity. Could they turn from their door one, however

monstrous, who solicited their compassion and friendship? I

resolved, at least, not to despair, but in every way to fit

myself for an interview with them which would decide my fate. I

postponed this attempt for some months longer, for the importance

attached to its success inspired me with a dread lest I should

fail. Besides, I found that my understanding improved so much

with every day's experience that I was unwilling to commence this

undertaking until a few more months should have added to my

sagacity.